Vranicar Family: Party of 5

Ahhhhhhhhh (huge sigh) I am a chronic worrier- I try to keep things under control and everyone happy and the house clean and my husband as stress free as possible and well if something stray from this ideal set up I worry. I mean, yes, there are MUCH larger things I worry about too. These things however I realize, at least partially, that I cannot control and therefore let them go a little easier. When I receive good news, news about something I was crazy worried about- I often see just how much it hung on me. The moment you get confirmation that your worst fear will not come true the feeling of actual weight being lifted off occurs. A huge sigh. Sometimes things do work out. And when they do- it feels so good!

:) I'm tired. I haven't been sleeping well lately. Well let me rephrase that. Falling asleep is not a culprits are 1. Bad/crazy/strange dreams that wake me up. 2. I wake up at about 3am, then 4am, then 4:30....and so on. So by the end of my day I'm really tired and when I head to work the next day it starts all over. Kevin simply laughs at me when I'm struggling to stay awake at 9:30pm.

Having a very normal morning at work today as I stare at my computer and Yahoo! chat with Mindi off and on I suddenly hear Kevin's voice coming up behind me! My heart stopped "What is he doing here?" As I turn around I see his arms full with roses, card and a large box of some kind. I can feel my cheeks starting to burn. Not really out of embarrassment but more so out of shock! Now what is in that box.... Without seeing the label of where it came from I think, well it's the same size as a boot box, but he wouldn't bring me boots to work. Hmmmm Then as he sets it down and pulls open the cardboard cover my eyes land on 24 gigantic vanilla and chocolate cupcakes delicately decorated with pink, red and white heart sprinkles. My gosh. If the beautiful vase of roses wasn't enough he had to play to my sweet tooth as well. I know all of this sounds wonderful, because it is, but truthfully, he treats me like a princess everyday. Really. Oh what a morning!

Kevin has taught me many things- and in the process made me a kinder, more thoughtful person. Before we started dating I never realized how "rude" I was to wait staff at restaurants. Not intentionally, but when Kevin would be asked "How are you tonight?" He always responds " Great! How are you doing?" Seriously. At first I laughed, I mean come on. They are getting paid to wait on us. But now I do the same thing, with or without him. I really do think I was a caring person before but since Kevin has been part of my life he has shown by example how to really be a kind person. One thing that he has yet to help me with is patience. Not so much with people for example but with myself. I can't wait for anything! It's like being 5 years old and wanting to open my Christmas gifts in October. I just get so excited or anxious about things that I just want them to happen NOW. :) Our engagement and wedding-- I met Kevin in September of 2002 and by November I k

God doesn't give you the people you want, He gives you the people you NEED To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be. Dear God: The lady reading this is beautiful,classy and strong, and I love her. Help her live her life to the fullest. Please promote her and cause her to excel above her expectations. Help her shine in the darkest places where it is impossible to love. Protect her at all times,lift her up when she needs you the most, and let her know when She walks with you, she will always be safe. Since moving to "The Cities", as people who are not from here like to call it, :) I have not had the network of girlfriends that I once had. Kevin reminds me that it is quality and not quantity. He also suggests that the reason for this is that I would rather be at home with him than out on the town with the girls and that I can tend to be a bit competitive with other women. Well maybe these are true, I tend to th

I haven't blogged lately. Well, that's not entirely true because I have blogged I just haven't posted. I'm not sure if I want "everyone" to read some of the posts. I suppose the purpose of blogging is for myself and others to read. If I don't want people to read it I would be writing in a journal. :) I guess I mostly afraid of criticism from people I know. Criticism from people I don't know doesn't really bother me.